December 29, 2009
Today I turn 36. Somehow that sounds more serious than 35.
And what a day! Sun came pouring in through the windows of the little studio where I am staying. Yoga, coffee with Jeff and Holly (yummy coffee from LuLu’s with real cream!), a long hike through Pogonip with Sarah Knight, a 90 minute hot tub soak – just my journal and me, dinner with friends at Malobar, cake and presents, and the new Almodovar movie to top it off. Basically a series of the best things all crammed into one day.
This was a very substantial year. So much happened!
December 25, 2009
From left to right: Dad, Bonnie, Nat, Echo, and Bello. The large pink doll with the red windbreaker is Lily. “She” is an anotomoically correct baby boy that I asked Sarah Baker to make for Echo. Lily is the size, weight, and shape of a real baby. Echo can barely pick her up and when she went to change her diaper and discovered a little quilted package she paused, looked up at Nat and me and exclaimed, “She has a penis! And a vagina!”.
December 22, 2009
We left the grey – the lovely grey! – of Portland for the brilliant gold of Santa Cruz. I don’t know why I doubt myself every year – yes, bring sandals, bring sunglasses, bring a damn dress even though you cannot fathom wearing such an outfit while packing in the Northwest. Oh pale body, wake up.
I am here for the people, for the giving of gifts, for the dental work, for the sun, for a chance to scrutinize Santa Cruz and determine if the town is as dear to me as my heart claims it to be.
December 20, 2009
This woman. She raises an eyebrow when making an observation. She is slowly cutting one side of her hair in a manner and speed that makes it so you can’t tell. She does Pilates. She makes an amazing wheat free chocolate cake and takes dinner parties as seriously as we do. She speaks with an accent. Her hair is red. She likes high-waisted pants with gathers and a really long crotch- high waisted and low crotched! Her feet are small. And she is a very very smart writer and I think you want to read her blog http://midgeblogs.wordpress.com/ because it makes me cry I laugh so hard.
December 17, 2009
Wow. That was cool. Michelle, the beautiful redhead in the lower righthand corner, contacted me a week or so back after seeing my dresses at the Together Gallery. I suggested she come over for a studio visit… well one thing led to another and suddenly I was hosting a bona-fide Friends of Filly Northwest. These FOF events have been happening for some time in Santa Cruz and always turn out to be blissfully overwhelming and highly stimulating. This was no exception. It is sooooo nice to see women in these clothes. I think they look so spectacular! Tall, curvy, big breasted, flat chested, long-legged, small wasted they all look perfect just the way they are. Seriously, I would have asked any one of them out. And what a sweet reminder to look at myself with that amount of appreciation. We are all just right.
December 16, 2009
December 13, 2009
This was a really serious craft night. Last minute, all business. I woke up Friday morning and realized x-mas was coming up soon! And I had nothing to give. With all my attention focussed on Bello, the month has flown by! This gathering was about getting some shit done. And strangely enough only women showed up (plus Drew) which meant not only focused making-of-things but lively conversation and popcorn eating. I made a beautiful little Tree of Life for Bello out of a holly branch from the alley. I pruned and painted it to look like a tree and then added dried flowers and painted seed pods that Bello and I have collected on our walks. Others knitted and sewed.
December 11, 2009
I miss my Gramma. Last night I walked in the house and it smelled just like her house on Marnell. And it wasn’t the food Sarah had cooked. Well, it was the food but it wasn’t food my Gramma would have cooked so who knows. All I do know is that I get to see her in a little over a week when Bello and I fly down for an extended x-mas stay!
December 11, 2009
Meet Marian. She has graciously taken on the task of balancing the books here at Filly,Inc. Oh how I appreciate those humans that like numbers and details and precision. That does not come naturally to me and I am a bit ashamed at my sloppy handling of Filly finances. I am simply not interested. I want to think about fit and color and style. Not IRS deadlines. But Marian does want to think about it and she does it with a gentle air and a great pair of glasses. So cute!
December 10, 2009
December 10, 2009
Despite frozen toes and fingers, Adam and I braved the cold at Smith and Bybee for some good old fashioned bird watching. We are the quintessential beginners and I find it very cute and kind of embarrassing. There are so many little song birds! And they move so quickly! And to make matters worse we pretty much never agree on what we saw. “Well, it had a red belly, it could be a …” “No it didn’t.” We started saying out loud, while looking at the bird, what we were seeing. That helped alot and allowed me to thumb through the book while he kept the binoculars trained on our subject. And even though the trip was cut short by the cold, I feel more familiar with what to look for the next time out.
December 10, 2009
I am treating Bello with a homeopathic remedy called Thuja, or Tree of Life. In humans it is used to treat loneliness that manifests in the form of eating disorders such as binging or anorexia, dry hair, early greying, fatty tumors and skin tags, over concern with one’s appearance, eagerness to please, and sarcomas!!! First indicators that this is the correct remedy will be changes in hair texture and a less pleasing attitude. Changes in the tumors will come a bit later. Today I noticed that his hair was indeed silkier and this observation was confirmed by Sarah and Adam!
It feels incredible to put my energy and love into healing. Up to this moment I have simply been subjecting Bello and myself to more and more bad news and a dire prognosis. Now I am looking, everyday, for improvement. I am expecting and hopefully manifesting health and longevity.