Oh Hell
January 24, 2012
There is nothing quite as cutting as finding out your ex is dating someone new. And that he likes her. Over the past six months I have consoled myself with the idea that I might have lost him as friend and companion but I still had his love. I have continued to talk to him in my mind and include him in my life plan, despite being aware of the fantasy element of this behavior. In defiance of the distance and silence, I considered us still connected somehow. Now I feel embarrassed and a bit pathetic for carrying on and assuming he was to.
My first urge was to do something, “about it”. Which is more ridiculous than the fact that I am jealous.
Why does it feel like his happiness is at the expense of mine? Ha! This is even more ridiculous than the first two thoughts!
the popsicle image really goes perfect with the feelings and situation you are talking about. thank you for your open heart.
you are one of the strongest most talented people I have encountered. you can get through this too!
Oh Jenny, gosh. I am that person when you describe me that way! Strong! Talented! And already feeling much better. Thank you. xo
I dont know you but I love your clothes so I thought to post. I am going through exactly the same thing in this same moment. The best advice someone gave me through this process was to be gentle and compassionate with yourself. Peace.
Thank you Callie. My sister gave me this advice, which I will pass on to you. She said that right now is the hardest point in your healing process. Right now is when the knife strikes. Later it will only scratch. And after a little while you won’t feel the pain at all. Peace to you as well.